disgraced_punk

Thu, 29 May 2008 03:41:09 GMT

This site is where i like to come to just be myself, & talk about how i feel. But its changed allot since i was here last . 1. People we're more supportive. 2. No one bashed eachothers posts, dont get me wrong theres a few people on here who i really like :)
But i am sick of people questioning wheather or not i have an eating disorder. What? Am i not thin enough for you?
Ive been hospitalized because of my ED. And diagnosed. You dont belive me, fine. But i dont care to here your insecurities.
The people who are calling everyone wannarexics seem to be the ones who are trying to put the spotlight off of them ? Hmm
I have anorexia, & tendencies of mia. Plz respect me & ill respect you, :)
If you dont like me, then you should stop reading my posts!

Sun, 25 May 2008 22:01:59 GMT

I havent weighed myself in a while since the first time i purged, & tmw on Monday im going on a 20 day water fast with 2 of my friends. .. Instead of 14 so feel free to join if you want! :)

Sat, 24 May 2008 01:58:12 GMT

i dont know whats wrong with me... but i liked the feel of food coming back up:( it felt like i had control... an now i dont know if i can stop!

Mon, 19 May 2008 07:55:25 GMT

i need to post even if no one comments:(
this is how this hell started.............
i was 12 years old, naturally slim, never worried about calories EVER. my mom had always been "unstable" meaning she moves around allot an just goes for it an doesnt think how it will affect the other person, my mom left me when i was 12 she just got in her car late at night i woke up an saw her getting dressed an i knew something was up, i asked her "where are you going??" she said "dont worry everythings gonna be fine". I started crying not sure why... just cryed, she left, never called me for over a YEAR SO a year of hell, a 12 yr old girl thinking oh my mom hates me an i just have to get over that. My dad never talked about it NEVER i was supose to put up an act like everything was OK, when deep inside i hurt, i lost weight over the summer that was when she had left. I would allow myself to eat past 5 pm an i had to stop before 7.30 i would eat an eat until then so i did this about a week an relised "Im not loosing anything!" So i started starving myself an only having up to 100 calories a day. I got to 83 pounds an was 5'3 in the 6th g. I didnt see myself as fat until a few months after i had started, i woke up one morning looked in the mirror an saw my shoulders looked humongous! i got freaked out so i started compulsive exercising, then it was my face is fat, then stomach, then i was just a complete fat ass.. an i havent been able to stop.

Fri, 16 May 2008 02:40:44 GMT

Gahh! Why are parents so annoying, gesh i eat an they call me a pig! & then when i don't eat there all like "omygosh fine stave yourself to death! blah blah blah im so sick of all this drama. And not to mention i was gonna fast but i totally fucked it up :( I HATE being a failure...
I lost 2 pounds tho ;) So instead of being 110 im now 108! Yay

Wed, 14 May 2008 01:03:21 GMT

My Currant Stats,,
Height: 5'5''
Cw: 110
Lw: 92
Hw: 122
Gw: 95
:) So I'm Not Totally Discusted With My Stats,, It's Just I'm Not Happy With Them Either Lol.. Make Sence?